I don’t know why I do this to myself. Torture myself like this. You would think by now I would have learned. But I guess not
I don’t think iv ever cried so much over one person. another lonley night for me
I’m a idiot. I threw away one of the best things to happen to me in a long time. now its just time to wallow in my own filth until I decide to come out. who knows when the fuck that will be…. I need some light I’m my life. I feel like I’m just surrounded by negativity and darkness all the time and no matter how hard I try and get back on my feet. something always knocks me down into a fucking ditch. maybe I should just give up on happnies. having a stone heart isn’t so bad I guess
I just want to get a cute apartment with a cute person and wear nothing but underwear and a big t-shirt or sweater and dance around, cook for each other, make our own movies and record each other while we’re playing, smiling, and laughing, and lay in bed together at night snuggled up warm together so close that we can hear each others pulse.
Reblogged from easily amused
once again. thinking about how I like to fuck up good things going for me. I’m a selfdestructive asshole
sometimes I literally feel like I have a heart of stone.
